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Five Things on a Tuesday
Apr. 2nd, 2019 02:36 pm*waves*
1. Got struck down by a dreadful cold last week. I even stayed home one day as my nose was pretty darn gross. I worked from home, naturally, because in this day and age heaven forbid you actually have an proper sick day where you don't work. Did I ever tell y'all that when I had my accident last year and could only use one hand and one leg, my boss dropped my work laptop off the day I got home from the hospital? *sighs*
2. It's looking more certain that I'm going to make the big move back to the States. Probably September? That's when my lease ends, so it kind of makes sense. I'm...terrified? I'm trying to find things to look forward to, and while they exist (my family, living rent-free for a while, I can get a dog, new places to explore, I won't have this constant feeling of being pulled apart, etc.), I'm having a hard time these days looking forward to much of anything. It's most likely a symptom of some larger depression issues, but being optimistic feels too draining as the thing I was looking forward to never matches my expectations.
I don't mean that I've become totally pessimistic, just...neutral, with a side of mild pessimism. :P
In short - this is a very big move and I'm very anxious about the whole thing, but I don't feel I can stay where I am any longer. So, it's probably a good idea to retrench.
3. I've signed up to WIP Big Bang 2019 to finish my Black Sails fic! I started this fic when we moved back to Wales, so it's fitting that I finish it before I leave.
4. Still doing lots of exercise and that aspect of my life feels pretty good! I have more energy and more shape to bits of me.
5. I don't think I have a #5? I hope everyone is doing okay! Happy Tuesday! ♥
1. Got struck down by a dreadful cold last week. I even stayed home one day as my nose was pretty darn gross. I worked from home, naturally, because in this day and age heaven forbid you actually have an proper sick day where you don't work. Did I ever tell y'all that when I had my accident last year and could only use one hand and one leg, my boss dropped my work laptop off the day I got home from the hospital? *sighs*
2. It's looking more certain that I'm going to make the big move back to the States. Probably September? That's when my lease ends, so it kind of makes sense. I'm...terrified? I'm trying to find things to look forward to, and while they exist (my family, living rent-free for a while, I can get a dog, new places to explore, I won't have this constant feeling of being pulled apart, etc.), I'm having a hard time these days looking forward to much of anything. It's most likely a symptom of some larger depression issues, but being optimistic feels too draining as the thing I was looking forward to never matches my expectations.
I don't mean that I've become totally pessimistic, just...neutral, with a side of mild pessimism. :P
In short - this is a very big move and I'm very anxious about the whole thing, but I don't feel I can stay where I am any longer. So, it's probably a good idea to retrench.
3. I've signed up to WIP Big Bang 2019 to finish my Black Sails fic! I started this fic when we moved back to Wales, so it's fitting that I finish it before I leave.
4. Still doing lots of exercise and that aspect of my life feels pretty good! I have more energy and more shape to bits of me.
5. I don't think I have a #5? I hope everyone is doing okay! Happy Tuesday! ♥
