Ouch and Umm? What the heck was that?

[seren_ccd]

So, yesterday I woke up at the usual time, had a cup of tea and slice of toast, then sat down watched two minutes of Murder She Wrote (with a very young Linda Hamilton!), then opened my laptop and COULD NOT READ ANYTHING due to this weird crescent shaped wavy line that got bigger and bigger across my field of vision in my right eye. I couldn't read any text at all.

I took off my glasses, my head started to hurt and I closed my eyes. It got better. I got up to make some whipped cream and it started all over again, this time in my left eye. I made what I needed to make, then sat down in a dark room, with my eyes closed and my glasses off. It eventually went away, but I STILL have a dull ache in my head.

The internet says this was an optical migraine? I've only ever had one migraine before (after watching John Carter in 3D, not pleasant), so this was new and painful and not fun. I'm off to the eye doctor tomorrow to have things checked out vision-wise, simply because glaucoma and cataracts run in the family. My mother also had a macular hole, so I'm being cautious.

So...not a fun day. Although, I made an awesome Key Lime Pie using this recipe. SO good.

How is everyone?

Comments

[seren-ccd.livejournal.com]

It's so ridiculous. Because, yes, I'm very stressed, but things are actually being handled? But my body is all - NO! It's NOT being handled! Have a headache! Or three! And you know the stuff you enjoy doing? Let's give you a headache that makes it impossible for you to do it! Woooo!

*side-eyes brain*

On the plus side, my eyes are fine! I have a healthy retina and my nerves are where they should be. Yay!

[aj.livejournal.com]

Oh, hon. Not ridiculous at ALL! Actually, for me, when things are being Handled and Dealt With, it's even MORE stressful because that means other people are doing active things for changes, and when I'm in my little hamster running wheel of STRESS, relying on other people to do The Things is like greasing up the gears with WD-40 to make said running wheel go even faster. And even when I know that Other People are more capable, the right people to handle The Things, it doesn't shut up the voice in my head screaming about independence and I should be DOING THE THINGS because it's MY THING and I am a terrible person for not being active and fixing THE THING.

Basically, letting other people help is ALSO stressful and it takes stupid time and stupid distance to really cope with that.

And something that works for me when I'm hamster balling out of control? Is to find a comfortable, soft place, put on mellow-ass music (see: "Hands to Heaven" by Breathe, etc.) and mentally focus on releasing tension body part by body part. It helps A LOT and just lets me slow my brain down. *hugs* And keep walking!

AND YAY, HEALTHY RETINA! YAY, HEALTHY NERVES! I am 100% jealous of your awesome eyes! :D

[seren-ccd.livejournal.com]

SERIOUSLY! Most of what I'm stressed about (Ben's health, getting a job, etc) is SO out of my hands. I have done EVERYTHING that I can. It is up to other people to do the THING. *wibbles* So stressful! When are we going to buy that island somewhere where all we have to do is read and watch tv? 'Cause I'm so ready to Golden Girl it up somewhere.

Oooh, I like your relaxation idea. I may try that tomorrow. I've been going to Starbucks and chilling with my Kindle, but I like the idea of actually releasing the tension somehow. *HUGS*